Autism Healing and Deliverance

Hi beloveds, I am not able to be on as much. The Lord has me “slowing my pace”. I’ve been going and going and for years and even more so since 2018, studying the Word, writing books, whilst working a job and being there for my family. We can become so busy that we may be doing good things but not all of them are God things. We can become busy like Martha instead of like Mary who chose the good part and sat at the feet of Jesus.

The Lord has been confirming His “You need to slow your pace” word multiple times, so I know it is of Him. “Slowing my pace” doesn’t mean I’m not going to post any more, but that I will be Spirit led about it and live each day asking Him what He’d have me do so I don’t get spread so thin I am not bearing fruit.

Seriously just putting this word from the Lord down right now in this blog post, I can feel burdens lifting off my shoulders and a beautiful lightness of the Lord fill me. Burdens I was putting on myself, feeling like I was letting people down are falling away right now. Thank You, Lord!

I’ve had requests for me to start this group and to do this and that and I am blessed by the requests however, I can barely keep up with my current responsibilities. Day to day life, like being sure to cherish my family as my first ministry, taking care of the pets the Lord entrusted to me, cooking and cleaning, home repairs, etc. take time. And of course, there must be time for the Word and communing with the Lord otherwise I can really feel the effects of my lack of spiritual food it in every way.

The Lord used something recently to really wake me up on this truth of His direction for me to slow my pace. For years, my son was unable to handle me looking him directly in the eyes. He would literally scream, shield his eyes like bright car lights (high beams) were hurting them, shouting, “Don’t look at me! You’re hurting me! You’re hurting me” and would be filled with extreme anger and much anxiety. I spent years speaking to my son looking at the floor or at some inanimate object off to the side because he literally couldn’t stand being looked at in the eyes.

I’ve been so busy lately, that when I’ve had conversations with my son, I was doing some task at the same time, not looking at my son, with my attention divided in two places. Not a very effective conversation or way to do things! My son could tell I wasn’t focused and honestly I wasn’t able to focus on either thing – the conversation or the task. My son said, “I can tell you can’t hear me. Look me in the eye when you’re talking to me.” That shook me! My answered prayer, a dream come true of being able to look my beloved son in the eye when we speak without any consequences of him reacting in an extreme negative way had been answered some time ago, but I wasn’t appreciating it. *crying now thinking of this* I stopped what I was doing and looked him in the eye, recalling the many many times, it wasn’t possible without extreme meltdowns and repented in my heart to the Lord.

How much more do I have to hear from the Lord and see before I heed His word to me? That should be more than enough. There is often more than one reason why He tells us to do something. Maybe He wants to share much more with me, and I am too busy to hear Him or simply that my family needs me more right now. No matter the reason, I desire to follow Jesus!

So I am still here for prayer requests, have lots of content here and on YouTube, and will share from the Lord as He leads with priority on my family as my main ministry. I also have an elderly mother who lives with us and glory to God she is very strong and healthy but still needs my help in some way almost daily.